Last night when I was writing my essay I was having a really hard time figuring out how to put everything together. It was hard to pick a topic and then find the appropriate essays to help add references to it. Eventually I decided to write about illness and disability. I think that this essay was a lot harder to write the the first essay because it was something we had to research and then relate to us personally. Also, I wasn't really sure how well my essay met the assignment requirements, but hopefully I will get good feedback.

In class today i was having a hard time trying to figure out what to write about for this essay. There were so many different options that I could have written about, I was having a hard time getting down to one sound idea what I could write 5 to 7 pages about. I decided that I was going to write about body images, and focus mostly on that image of people with disabilities. This somewhat affects me personally because my sister has some physical disabilities, so I think that this topic is something that I can write soundly about, and produce a good essay from too.

After finishing the movie in class i realized a few things. One that i figured out after we summarized in class the section from the essay called "Cultural Fixions of the Freak Body: Conney Island and the Postmodern Sideshow," is that you never can tell who the so called "freak s." This depends 0n your setting and who is around you. On these side shows the freaks are the normal people and in the outside world, the term "freak" isn't something that should be used at all. Also from watching this movie is that people who these physical disabilities are actually very functional like the man with no hands or legs who can roll the cigarette, and has a complet family of his own. This surprised me and i found myself no on longer feeling bad for these people anymore, because they were making livings, had families and were living as normal of a life that they could.

Today in class we watched the beginning of the movie freaks. I thought that it was a really good display of how cruel people can be sometime in order to get what they want. When the beautiful women started to use the midget for his money it shows how greedy she is and truly cruel, she will be to get what she wants. Also something that made me really upset and kind of confused as to why he did was when the big guy punched the half man half women in the face. I understand it was because he was them kissing, but I don't understand why he had to punch they person in the face. Once again it shows how truly cruel people can be for no reason. This move somewhat reminds me of how sometime teenagers can act. They can be vicious for no reason to someone who is different either to hide the fact that they insecure, or to get a laugh. I am really looking forward to watching the rest on Wednesday.